This post has been rumbling around in my mind for a month now. I don’t usually let posts rumble like that but I needed to get a bit of clarity around my thoughts and the last couple of weeks have been a little hectic. Now that they have settled down a bit here is my clarity:
Sometimes I wish I was in a position to do big things
You know, fundraise lots of money for an amazing cause. Be an activist. Build an orphanage. Volunteer for a soup kitchen. Instead I find myself living in the bubble, protecting myself and my loved ones from all the bad stuff out there and essentially working just hard enough to make just enough money to lead a comfortable, stress free existence. That does not sound very noble does it?
This is where my capacity for overthinking goes into over-drive and before I know it I am in the shame spiral from hell.
Why can’t I do more?
Why can’t I be a better person?
Misery does love company though and the comments on this post tell me I am in good company. Which brings me back to this sentiment shared by Julie in those same comments:
It’s like the butterfly effect. Believe in the power of good and that everyone has the capacity to make a difference.
I definitely DO believe in the power of good and I definitely DO believe that everyone has the capacity to make a difference, big or small. I am not sure why I hold my own capacity to a higher standard than I expect from other people but today I shall attempt to lower that standard.
There is no standard
If everyone in the world just does what they can do, big or small, then the world will be a much better place don’t you think?
So what can I do?
Well first of all, each day I will try to be the best version of me I can be. Some days I will succeed and some days I will miss the mark. But each day I will TRY.
I will try to raise a child who is compassionate and kind and confident. I want him to ask questions and challenge the status quo and to be able to think for himself. But most of all I want him to be kind.
I will be kind and compassionate and confident myself.
I will smile at strangers.
I will learn patience.
I will try to only do one thing at a time.
I will practice random acts of kindness. And un-random acts.
In the immortal words of Gandhi, I will try to be the change I want to see in this world.
What about you? Are there small things you can do that will make a big difference to this world? I’d love to hear them as I am sure I will be inspired by them.